Gratitude	-----
1	Today I am thankful for movie days! and 3 day weekends!
2	Today I am thankful for super early starts.
3	Today I am thankful for calm and cozy days.
4	Today I am thankful for being optomistic.
5	Today I am thankful for mr. cain!!!!
6	Today I am thankful for shorter days!
7	Today I am thankful for moving nights and fun dinners!
8	Today I am thankful for getting lots of rest!
9	Today I am thankful for productive starts!
10	Today I am thankful for cleanliness.
11	Today I am thankful for sweet patients!
12	Today I am thankful for getting through it.
13	Today I am thankful for being peaceful.
14	Today I am thankful for a fun week and more to come!
15	Today I am thankful for a long, well-spent day.
16	Today I am thankful for being productive and efficient!
17	Today I am thankful for healthier recipes!
18	Today I am thankful for all the help I can get!
19	Today I am thankful for rainy days!!!!
20	Today I am thankful for lots and lots of fun.
21	Today I am thankful for FRIDAY.
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23	Today I am thankful for being accountable.
24	Today I am thankful for my home office!
25	Today I am thankful for getting through it all.
26	Today I am thankful for learning new things.
27	Today I am thankful for sweet people and love
28	Today I am thankful for quick days!
29	Today I am thankful for OREGON.
30	Today I am thankful for nice smelling candles!

+ go to a pumpkin patch.

+ carve a pumpkin.

+ bake pumpkin bread.

+ make pumpkin empanadas.

+ go to the state fair.

+ make homemade apple pie/apple tarts.

+ handwritten notes to people to tell them why i'm thankful for them.

+ homemade soup + movie night!

+ make it through this HEAT (az probs).

+ first of all, goodwill is my JAM. i've been popping in throughout the week lately (about once every 1.5 weeks) on non-super-sale-saturday-days and i have been getting so lucky with disney stuff! one goodwill even had whole TRAYS of disney pins!!! i bought a vintage disney storybook for THREE DOLLARS! ugh.

+ i've been keeping better track of my eating habits from monday-friday lately so it's a START!!!! i'm starting off by counting calories (pls keep opinions to yourself) just to see what i eat from day to day and i'm going to start by cutting that back! aka, swapping potato chips for a healthier snack. and its working! i'm a numbers oriented person so seeing the calories i'm eating helps keep me accountable!

+ love like is.... strange??????? haha. everyone has someone they want to set me up with and weirdly some of the guys FRIENDS are even messaging me????? so it's weird, its all weird - and i'm going to leave it at that, haha.

+ MY JOB - has been off to a solid start, so far. i love working in the medical field. often i find myself worried that i'll make a huge mistake, but then i remember how type a i am and that i will ASK before i make any major decision (plus my job title doesn't really have any major decisions TO make - so plus, plus).

+ AUTUMN!!!!!!!!! my heart has been swimming around autumn time since last year basically so i'm so excited to see all the CANDLES and baked goods!

+ tv is also getting better - the purge, castle rock, AHS, TWD are all either back or coming back and i'm LIVING because #homebod #wouldratherhangathomewatchingmoviesandtvshowsthanbesocial.

Okay, so - I think this blog post is LONG over due because my engagement ended WELL over a year ago. But honestly, the reason I didn't post this sooner is because I was yo-yoing back and forth between wanting to honor BOTH our privacy and just believing there wasn't much to say? You know?

The prompting for this post is honestly because I know *someone* who is actually going through an annulment.

I thank Heavenly Father EACH AND EVERYDAY that I never went through with the marriage - because 100% in my heart I know it would have ended in a divorce. We (me and my ex) were two completely different people who rushed so quickly into a very serious thing.

We met in April of 2016, got engaged June 2016, then broke it off for good May 2017. It was a VERY short lived relationship, and even shorter lived engagement.

I THINK a lot of people assumed that I didn't address the break up because I was embarrassed - if you're one of those people I don't blame you for thinking that ;) but I'm here to tell ya now that, that was not the case... After everything happened last May I allowed myself to be sad...

the initial, deep in my heart, sadness lasted about a week (ask my mom/entire family - we were all surprised about it LOL)... then after that wore off I honestly spent the following month(s) getting back into my OWN routine. The HARDEST part of that break up wasn't the actual heartbreak - it was realizing I spent SO MUCH TIME with one other person that I didn't know what to do with myself afterward. It was getting used to not having him around!

After (+ even during) I got back into my own routine I started seeing my friends more often, talking to boys again!, and re-inventing who I was and who I wanted to be - and then so much time had passed I had no feelings toward the broken engagement, it was just what it was and I didn't feel heartache or pain or fond-ness (???) toward the subject and I felt like if I was to make it blog post it would be so boring and bland and no one would read it, haha.

BUT, like I said - after seeing this *person* go through an annulment it has allowed me to look into how I want to proceed in my future relationship(s) and even let me re-visit what exactly went wrong in my last one!

So, here it is...


1. We were so different!
I will say this until I am BLUE in the face - differences in a relationship CAN BE GOOD THINGS! But in this particular relationship... we were different about our FUNDAMENTAL beliefs and so we were butting heads in ways that truly mattered and worked against one another. Our differences didn't make each other stronger or "complete" one another. If you're going to be different - be different in ways that supplement one another and could help each other GROW in better, stronger ways. We argued about religion, political beliefs, lifestyle ideals and other HUGE topics that even strong/mature marriages and relationships (I think) have a hard time dealing with alone - we didn't stand a chance considering we STILL hardly knew each other!

2. My family didn't like him.
I think this one is self explanatory - I couldn't see how wrong, wrong, wrong we were for each other BUT my family could. So I spent a lot of time defending him and taking his side, while my family was trying to slap some sense into me. This lead to me having to CONSOLE my other half and try to convince (the both of us) that my family's opinion didn't mater AND me arguing with my family on the other end. It was all lose, lose, lose. My biggest life tip is - listen to your mom. 

3. We rushed it.
THIS SHOULD HAVE BEEN POINT NUMBER ONE BECAUSE HONESTLY THIS WAS PROBABLY THIS BIGGEST ISSUE. I think I can stem all our relationship issues back to this one specific point - we rushed it. We hardly knew each other. We got serious so fast. etc. etc. etc. Like I mentioned above, a lot of the things we struggled with were more than likely things ALL relationships struggle with BUT we were still trying to know and understand each other WHILST going through these huge issues. It's hard to expect a relationship to last during the hardships and struggles when there is ZERO FOUNDATION. Even the most seasoned relationships have a hard time sticking through when the going gets tough.

4. It wasn't the right relationship.
I can type all day long all the reasons why this relationship (and past relationships) failed, but honestly none of it would matter because ultimately the reason this relationship didn't last is because it wasn't right. The right relationship will be the exception to all the rules - really, truly.

1. It is simplistic.
+ I love how simplistic it is because I am one of those people who would rather decorate their planner with their own washi tape, markers and stickers - so I get to make it my own!

2. It has notes, daily gratitude, bills/items due, dinner plan, money spent, daily top 3 and a do-not-forget section! ALL IN ONE DAY!
+ I tried out bullet journaling (and I really liked it BTW) but it took up too much time because I liked to have a separate section for the money I spent each day and the outfit I wore (before I worked in the medical field) and I struggled finding a planner that could 1. fit all my daily to do's and 2. also have a DISTINCT section for the money I spent, my outfits and whatever conference talk and scripture I read for the day! I modify the notes section and the daily top 3 and have a specific order for where I write what I need!

3. Has a note section after every month!
+ The note section is the MOST IMPORTANT to me when it comes to planning out my month. The mini-sidebar in most planners do not provide enough space so the full note page is where I house my savings plan for the month, my plan for blog posts, and a quick paragraph of what I hope for the upcoming month! The mini-sidebar I use for a running list of bills (which I highlight once they are paid!) plus any birthdays, my paychecks and their amounts and my monthly updated credit score!

4. Cute quote on every page!
+ There is always a cute and motivating quote for every single day!

5. SUPER GREAT QUALITY!
+ ENOUGH SAID. I have had so many planners - every brand, every size, shape, style - all of it and this quality is perfect! Nothing bleeds to the next page, and the binding is thick and strong.



1. It's heavy!
+ Probably not ideal for traveling/bringing to and from class! I'd still do it because I think it's worth having all my contents in ONE planner (rather than multiple ones), but thinking about *most* people I think this could be an issue!

2. Not ideal if you don't have to/want to plan out your day hour-by-hour.
+ This planner was WAY better when I was in college and had several classes and each day looked relatively different because it has an hour-by-hour layout. I still LOVE IT because I like to see what my day looks like (even if it never changes, haha) because I am THAT person - but some people may not see a use to this if they work full time/have a steady and set schedule.

3. Does not have a larger note section.
+ The monthly note sections are the bomb but I like having a general note section for regular "life" notes that can't be contained to one month i.e. yearly resolutions, usernames and passwords, yearly savings plan, weight loss plan, etc.

4. Limited designs.
+ The planners are SO CUTE but only if you like really chic and simple designs - I know some people would love to design their own planners and/or be able to customize the planner even just a little. This is the SMALLEST con because, like I said, I love the designs and think they are so cute haha.





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+ really, really, really DO NOT spend (super struggling with this one!)

+ eat cleaner (swap out unhealthy snacks for healthier ones).

+ NO EATING OUT (I'm getting better with this one! Woot, woot.)

+ continue spending (4) hours a week on my content/brand.

+ practice mindfulness for 3-5+ minutes a day.

+ practice mindfulness for 10-15+ minutes 3x this month.

+ lose 5 lbs!

+ Declutter, declutter, declutter!

+ do something outdoorsy/adventure-y.

+ watch less TV/youtube (1 hour a day!)

+ try to catch myself when I think negatively/begin to pass judgment on someone.

+ post on instagram 3-4 times a week!

+ love, love, love who I am and where I am in life.