What did you do in 2019 that you’d never done before?
- I went to the East Coast for the first time! I moved away from my family. I fell in love.

Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- I didn't keep my general new year's resolutions (i.e. ones that became even more zeroed in during the months) but the big ones - yes. I love Arizona even more, and I am definitely a bigger fan of the freeway.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
- Not this year!

How do you want to be remembered?
2018 - as someone who is soooo full of love and sweet things!

how was your first kiss?
- sloppy and gross, haha.

Vampire: Someone offers you a chance at immortality. Do you take it, and why or why not?
- This one is SO hard but I think I would... because I have like a weird anxiety with time and I think I would live a significantly more enjoyable life if I knew I had an unlimited amount, lol.

1. what do i believe i deserve in life? why?
- i believe i deserve happiness, in whatever form i find it. i believe i deserve this because i believe EVERYONE deserves this. Like i said, in whichever form i find it - which means happiness looks and feels differently for everyone.

2. what does trust mean to me? how can i learn to trust more?
- trust means EVERYTHING. it means being able to rely on someone else as easily and comfortably as you can rely on yourself. sometimes it gets convoluted because some people DONT trust themselves but i think that is truly where it starts. i can learn to trust more when i learn to trust myself and my judgement more.

3. there is a quote from jack kornfield that says "like a sandcastle, all is temporary. build it, tend it, enjoy it. and when the time comes, let it go." what do you need to let go in your life? how do you think you will feel once you let it go?
- i need to let go of my expectations. i expect things to go my way and i expect things to work out as perfectly as i imagine them and i think that when i let go of my expectations i can learn to love and be happy with what i'm given instead... because sometimes it is better.

4. the dalai lama once said, "remember that sometimes not getting what you want is a wonderful stroke of luck." when was the last time you didn't get something you wanted, but it worked out for the better?
- the last time i didnt get what i wanted was in my last relationship! i mean, obviously there are a lot of things i want and don't get but the biggest i would say would definitely be my last relationship. i wanted a lot of things that i KNEW in my heart i would not get and when it was all over i ended up with so much more than i thought i would! i got closer to my family, i got to understand myself better and i got a lot of new opportunities.

5. make a list of 10 things you do to relax. how can you incorporate these things into the week ahead of you?
- read, plan, watch youtube, watch netflix, browse zillow, listen to music, read blogs/articles, nap, shop, decorate. I CAN DO ALL OF THE ABOVE.

6. what is your favorite song? why do you like it? how does the song make you feel? what do you think about when you listen to it?
- mess is mine x vance joy. i love it because it is everything i can picture love to be in my heart, in every way and i think about my future marriage and family!

7. "the only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be." - ralph waldo emerson. if you knew this statement were true, what would you do differently in your life? what if you could do these things every day?
- I WOULD PUT MYSELF OUT THERE AND STOP BEING SO SHY. i would take chances on myself and do what makes me happy, no matter what. throw logic to the wind. if i could do these things every day i think i would live a much more fulfilling life.

8. what does love mean to you? how do you show these emotions and actions to yourself?
- love means never ending. i think some loves come to an end, but the biggest and most important ones are yours for life. i show these emotions to myself by making sure that when i feel my lowest that i need to never give up and keep going, because i love myself enough to see a future.

9. in what areas of your life do you show a lot of faith? why does faith come easily to you in these circumstances?
- i honestly can't think of a single one. this is my biggest fault because i feel like i doubt so much and have the most cynical mind and i let logic rule my life instead of having faith in what i WANT to have faith in.

10. what would your daily habits look like if you choose to live life with an open heart?
- i would wake up, do work that i love, spend time with the people i love, take time to volunteer, then workout/join a class (learning ANYTHING) - plan how i can change myself and/or someone nearest to me for the next day. sleep. repeat.

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
- Trey Songz - Slow Motion.
- Hozier - Work Song.
- Selena Gomez - Hands to Myself.
- Thoms Rhett - Crash and Burn.
- Megan Trainor - All About That Bass.
LOL.

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
- Barack Obama, probably.

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
- "... I have a great idea for a payback prank," Isaac says. "We buy those bugs they sell in pet shops for lizards and let them loose in their room." Hahahaha.

4) What do you think about most?
- My future.

5) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
- Yes! Haha.

6) Do you have any strange phobias?
- Things sticking to me? Its REALLY weird, lol.

7) What's your religion?
- LDS.

8) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
- Walking, relaxing.

9) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
- The Maine.

10) What was the last lie you told?
- Hmmm, I don't even know, haha.

11) Do you believe in karma?
- YES.

12) What does your URL mean?
- My name, lol.

13) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
- Greatest weakness = I think too much.
- Greatest strength = I can find the bright side to most situations.

14) Who is your celebrity crush?
- Vance Joy.

15) How do you vent your anger?
- Cry. Go to tumblr, idk, haha.

16) Do you have a collection of anything?
- Pins!

17) Are you happy with the person you've become?
- I'm happy with the person I'm still becoming, yes!

18) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?
- HATE high pitched noises (who doesn't) LOVE the sound of rain (again, who doesn't).

19) What's your biggest "what if"?
- My past relationships! Also, what if I chose a different path than university.

20) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
- Yes and yes.

21) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
- Left arm = my other laptop.
- Right arm = nothing.

22) Smell the air. What do you smell?
- Oranges!

23) What's the worst place you have ever been to?
- Hm, I'm not sure??

24) Most attractive singer/s of your opposite gender?
- Vance Joy.

25) To you, what is the meaning of life?
- Love.

26) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
- Yes! And NO, thank God.

27) What was the last movie you saw?
- I seriously cannot even remember.

28) What's the worst injury you've ever had?
- Stitches on my chin after passing out.

29) Do you have any obsessions right now?
- I don't think so.

30) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
- Yes.

31) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
- NO.

32) What is your astrological sign?
- Cancer!

33) What's the last thing you purchased?
- Lysol wipes, hahaha.

34) Love or lust?
- LOVE, always.

35) In a relationship?
- Nope.

36) How many relationships have you had?
- ZEROOOOOOOO ;)

37) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
- Be super goofy and bubbly and sweet. Idk how it works but it does, lol.

38) Where is your best friend?
- DC.

39) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
- Snoozing.

40) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
- Yes! I think so!

41) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
- Looks like I'm getting fired.

42) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
- a) I don't think I'd tell anyone.
- b) Spend as much time as possible with the ppl I love and traveling!
- c) Definitely.

43) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
- Mess Is Mine.

44) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
- COMMUNICATION.

45) How can I win your heart?
- Be super friendly and goofy and genuine.

46) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
- Yes, I think so.

47) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
- Letting go of things not meant for me!

48) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
- Veni, Vidi, Vici, Amavi.

49) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word "heart."
- Mess Is Mine.

50) Basic question; what's your favorite color/colors?
- Pink and white!

51) What is your current desktop picture?
- Snowy mountains.

52) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
- WEIRD QUESTION, no one.

53) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on?
- Hm, I don't really know?

54) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
- I think to be invisible! Or to read minds! Or to fly, haha.

55) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
- I think being a baby, lol.

56) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
- Probably all my past relationships - like the bad parts of them, lol.

57) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
- VANCE JOY, helloooo.

58) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
- Iceland.

59) Ever been on a plane?
- Yes!

60) Give me your top 5 hottest celebrities.
- Vance Joy.
- Vance Joy.
- Vance Joy.
- Vance Joy.
- Vance Joy.

arrow: how much does your happiness depend on your relationships with others?
- I think a lot. I'm happiest when I have steady, loving, happy relationships - both romantically and platonic!

bouquet: what's your favorite kind of flower?
- I'm a sucker for them all, tbh.

chocolate: what would you most like to receive on valentine's day?
- edible arrangements bouquet ;)

couple: are you annoyed by public displays of affection?
- NEVER, i love it lol.

cupid: what's your sexuality?
- straight.

date: do you think age differences are a big deal?
- Nah. I dated someone 8 years older and I NEVER thought about it until he'd reference something super old lol.

heart: talk about your crush
- cuuuuuuuuutesttttttt boy in the whooooleee widddeeee worlddddd, it's insane.

hug: how comfortable are you with physical contact?
- depends on the person, honestly. but pretty comfy!

kiss: have you had your first kiss? with who?
- YES, with this guy named aaron in like 7th grade - WORST KISS EVER. he ate fajitas beforehand LOL.

rose: are you romantic?
- I think so, sure!

sweet: do you like candy and chocolate?
- not as much as I like chips, lol.

true love: do you believe in love at first sight?
- hmmmmm, i believe in attraction obviously but maybe not "love".

xxoo: are you dominant?
- i don't think so, lol.

Real or fake tree?
- Real. Through and through.

Have you ever kissed anyone under mistletoe?
- Never! But the month is still young ;)

Any christmas traditions? What are they?
- My family always buys a brand new ornament that has all our names on it every year!

What’s your best idea of a christmas dinner?
- Lots of cozy and comforting types of food and desserts and surrounded by family!

Do you spend christmas with friends or family?
- Family.

What’s your opinion on white christmases?
- I WISH i was lucky enough to experience one!

Do you still believe in Santa?
- Yes.

What’s your favourite thing about christmas?
- All of it. The entire thing. There's nothing not to love.

What do you do the day after christmas?
- Relax and wish it was still christmas.

What’s your favourite christmas memory?
- I think the general feeling surrounding christmas is my favorite. I think about it all year long, haha.

What’s the best present you’ve received?
- Hard to say.

What’s the best present you’ve given?
- I'm not sure, haha.

Have you ever been away from home during christmas?
- Not yet :(

Do you own a christmas sweater?
- Tons.

Does your house get covered in fairy lights?
- YES! Haha, year round too.

An angel or star at the top of your tree?
- Star.

Do you listen to christmas songs?
- 24/7.

Do you write christmas cards?
- No, but I really want to!

How long is your christmas break?
- I'm no longer in school so I don't have one ;(

What’s your favourite candy cane?
- Plain ol' peppermint!

Worst present you’ve received?
- NONE!

Do you watch christmas movies?
- Not as many as I'd like, but yes!

What are you hoping to get this christmas?
- Lots and lots of love.

Do you wake up early on christmas day?
- Yes!

What do you put on your tree?
- Usually just ornaments! Nothing too fancy or crazy.

What’s your funniest christmas story?
- I'm not sure I have one? Lol.

Tell a christmas joke.
- What do you say to Santa when he's taking attendance at school? Present.

Do you get advent calendars?
- I TRY TO! But the options here are limited! :(

Do you own a santa hat?
- Duh.

What’s a tradition you would like to start?
- There's a TON I want to start when I start having children of my own! But I think just getting into the spirit a lot more, and a lot sooner!

Apple pie: fondest childhood memory?
- Going to the park everyday after school to wait for my mom to get off of work!

Autumn: What is your favorite thing about Fall?
- EVERYTHING, seriously. I love autumn so much.

Baste: Favorite scent?
- Really big on clean and "cozy" scents, but also anything that smells like trees/forest (PINE) is MY FAVE.

Cranberry Sauce: What's the one thing you can't leave the house without?
- Phone.

Drumstick: If you could go back in time and live in any time period you want, which period would you choose?
- I think the late 80s - early 90s.

Feast: One food you don't like sharing with others?
- ANY drink, it grosses me out too much, haha.

Family: Who is the person you are closest to?
- Hmm.

Gobble: Are you better at talking or listening?
- Listening.

Gravy: What kind of food can you not live without?
- Spicy, for sure.

Ham: Funniest joke you've ever heard?
- AHHH, too much pressure.

Harvest: Do you hoard anything? If so, what is it?
- Definitely hoard pins/buttons and SWEATERS. Used to hoard stationary but that's long over, haha.

Corn on the Cob: Do you like a little mess in your life or do you prefer things to be neat and tidy?
- NEAT AND TIDY. Not even a question, haha.

Mashed Potatoes: What is something that always brings you comfort when you are sad?
- Music.

Native American: What culture fascinates you most?
- ALL OF THEM.

November: Favorite time of the year?
- Oct through April.

Pumpkin Pie: What is one kind of dessert you could eat everyday and never get tired of it?
- None, not a big sweet tooth kind of person!

Pilgrim: If you could rule over any country, which country would you rule over?
- Hmm, I think I'd want to invent my own little magical country.

Rolls: Do you think you're a selfish person in any way?
- Lots of ways.

Stuffing: Are you happy with your body image?
- Most of the time.

Sweet Potato Casserole: Weirdest food combination you've ever tried?
- I eat the WEIRDEST things that I don't think they're weird any more until someone points it out to me; so I'm not sure, lol.

Squash: Your biggest disappointment?
- Letting things get to my heart a lot more than they should. Putting important things aside for "love".

Turkey: The stupidest thing you've ever done?
- Hhahahahahahahah.

Yams: How would you describe your sense of humor?
- Super random and super stupid, haha.

How do you feel about golden oreos?

Hi guys!!! So I've been itching to do a survey but I hadn't come across any on tumblr lately (LOL) BUT while I was scrolling through Pinterest I came across a list of 30 different blog prompts for a 30 day challenge but I figured I could crank out more than 1/2 of these with short and sweet answers so I decided to make it into a quick survey instead! I hope you all enjoy! XO, me.


1. How do I feel at the moment?
- Like One Tree Hill is LIFE. Seriously, how did I put this off for so long....

2. What do I need more of in my life?
- Love. Love. Love. Always love.


3. What would make me happy right now?
- Unlimited amount of time.


4. What is going right in my life?
- Most things - nearly ALL things.


5. What am I grateful for? List at least 10 things.
- The LUXURY of having braces.
- Getting an A in DevBio!
- Having my finances (mostly) in order.
- Sunny days!
- Sweet (but stinky) Cainer Wainer.
- One Tree Hill.
- Believing in myself.
- All the love coming into my life lately!
- Being able to relax on this BEAUTIFUL DAY OFF OF WORK!
- Sleepy Titan!


6. When did I experience joy this week?
- Everyday.


7. List all my small victories and successes.
- Everything these days feels like a small victory.


8. What's bothering me? Why?
- How cold I am! #stillwearssweatersinAZsummers.


9. What are my priorities at the moment?
- Getting laundry done #adulting.


10. What do I love about myself?
- EVERYTHING ;)


11. Who means the world to me and why?
- My family, my puppers and my friends! Because I wouldn't be me without them!


12. If I could share one message to the world, what would it be?
- "Do all things with great love."


13. What advice would I give to my younger self? (Do I follow this advice now?)
- SLOW DOWN. Don't rush life. And I'm trying to, really trying to!


14. What lesson did I learn this week?
- Buy the jeans. Do it.


15. If i had ll the time in the world, what would I want to do first?
- Travel! Learn a new language! Learn new things!


16. What's draining my energy? How can I reduce or cut it out?
- These hot cheetos I'm eating... I can stop eating them, lol.


17. What does my ideal morning look like?
- Wake up, clean the house, relax and watch Netflix or get work/school stuff done! In my PJs - the entire time.

18. What does my ideal day look like?
- See question #17.


19. What makes me come alive? When was the last time I felt truly alive?
- Love, being in love. Right now.


20. What/who inspires me the most? Why am I drawn to those inspirations?
- I've been hardcore following cute and loving LDS couples on instagram and listening to love and eternal marriage conference talks lately - so basically all those people who provide healthy examples of Godly love.


21. Where does my pain originate? What would need to happen for me to heal?
- Mostly my heart. I would need to stop hardening it against the world and start believing and trusting in it more.


22. What are my strengths? What am I really good at?
- I am STELLAR at organization and getting things done and being responsible, lol.


23. What is something I would love to learn?
- German. #53prozent

24. What hobbies would I like to try?
- Embroidering a lot more seriously!

25. Where would I want to live my ideal life?
- Oregon. Maybe London, will let you know soon xx.


26. Where would I want to travel in the next 5 years?
- England, Germany, Alaska!


27. What can I do to take better care of myself?
- Pray.


28. When have I done something that I thought I couldn't do?
- EVERYDAY!


29. At the end of my life, what do I want my legacy to be?
- Love.